Love, love, love.

I always wake up to this every day. I want to share it with you one day.

Its incredible it only took us a week to be what we are again; Ruined, knackered, beaten, or even, destroyed.

Just reminding about our little conversation about me and my phone bill,
How could that little talk escalate to this? A point where we need a messenger to talk to each other. (?)

These are indeed rough times for both of us, but I'm sure we both could get through with this.

I just want you to remember that the past is there for us to improve on.

I might at all be the man that has muscles crafted by the gods of beauty,

may have the mind blessed of the gods of wisdom,

I may not have anything for you physically but, I still want you.

The fact you would be gone due to what I am just saddens me.

Although I might not look like it nor act like it, I do indeed love you.

With all my heart and soul, I do.

Please, let this robot learn again. To be free to love. To be caressing you. To hold you against me every night. To have you to cuddle whenever a sad movie ended. To one day waking up seeing you beside me.

To love you, forever and always<3

Your distraught and in damn boyfriend,

Azizul

Do not.

I still don't understand why are we like this.

Why the single notion of you aren't answering me anything.

Why the dreadful dial tone goes longer and longer in my ear everyday.

Why the lone text conversation in my phone is only filled by my own texts.

Even if everyone do think I am happy without you, in reality, being emotionally distraught and detached from everyone isn't really my nor I believe as your definition of happiness.

Being socially cut off from the grid makes me think about the ral stuff and not just on the spot fun. I found more time in doing with my personal ventures but all in all..

Most probably when I'm done doing this fundamentally rare post and adding the fact that you won't probably be even reading this, I don't think you would care much about the final three words I'm going to type as hard as I can. And no. It's not the typical I love you.

Happy anniversary, sayang<3