Honestly, I wouldn't knew half a brain to start this post on.
Maybe it took a certain person to go and make me take a stab at it.
It's funny on how that day I planned and how it ended.
Let's start of an introduction,
I remembered the first time I met you really.
That hot day 7 years ago, in your neighbour's house.
I was there because well, frankly, I was bored of my house and decided to go there. Then you came, we both actually did thought you were a nuisance since you were always to brash and loud one that we come across. We actually spent a good 2 hours or so talking about being ourselves.
Then it was cartoon time when we sat, all three watching Disney and what not.
Spectacular, I say.
Skip that to 7 years now. Its twenty ten and it started of with a whole sounds of joy and jubilation.
Made me felt good for everything
Let skip to that Wednesday.
The very Wednesday that made happy the first ten minutes and made me remorseful for the next ten days.
Thought it was a harmless thing you know,
Harmless till sharp words were attached into the paradox of all things.
Plus the way you ended it, It hurt. Alot.
And that without counting how you continued it.
I thought It was a one day thing, Not even more than 24 hours to cool off, I was blaspheming wrong.
Tried contacting you to say more and more wilfully dull sentences that starts with Sorry and with that sad emoticon face thing.
Then you started it with the deleting and shits.
You know, after that incident, I've been sad. Shameful for what I've done. Disgusted for what have become. I was calling for some word from you. Even if its a bad one. I didn't care. A word from you is better than the silence you given me for that day and the following weeks.
Then, when you came to your neighbour's house once more, I thought I could talk and ask forgiveness yet again. Only to be checked and be told to sod off.
It was a Wednesday too but this time It was raining. Probably it rained because there was tears going down on this writer's face.
It took me a while to realised and take in what is happening. I remembered that, My dad once said, "If a person felt pain and sorrow for a long time, that person would eventually be immune."
You could eventually say, I became that person after weeks of not hearing a word from her, weeks of teasing and those days where I wake up in the middle of the night just to cry over you.
Then today, you came. I didn't know what to do. My already emotion dead brain towards you was dreadfully and fully heartedly dead towards you. And probably towards you only. All those days of being a good and awesome friend wasn't in my mind but that sad day was.
I think it fitted with everything that happen. I don't work with reconnections. I've reconnected with an old friend only to knew she isn't what she is now. Its either be good friend or nothing for me. I'm a sixteen year old boy that was enjoying the party with joy, only to have a deep gash of despair that you made. I'm sadistic like that.
That awesome, good, happy go lucky image I had you for you changed into something that is somewhat, dull to me.
Go enjoy everything in whatever you do. By yourself or by friends.
And if you could, be happy that you are the only person that I currently avoid. >:(
Goodbye, Lily.
